Self hatred-depression-RLS-asthma-sciatic pain

It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right.

I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.

I guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying because it hurts to much to hold on anymore.

You say I'm always happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but what you'll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress too.

Tired of living and scared of dying.

I don't necessarily want to be happy; I just want to stop feeling miserable.

Sometimes it hurts more to smile in front of everyone, then to cry all alone.

Death is God's way of saying you're fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can't fire me, I quit.

I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left.

I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that's in the inside.

I hate what I have become to escape what I hated being.

It's funny the way you can get use to the tears and the pain.

What do you do when you become too scared, too scared to live, too scared to die, too scared to love, too scared to even care?

Her sadness did not have that. It dripped slowly into her life without her noticing it, at least, not noticing it until it consumed her fully and smothered her with darkness.

I quit, I give up, nothing's good enough for anybody else, it see... when Im all alone it's best way to be. When I'm by myself nobody else can say good-bye. Everything is temporary anyway.

Pain is your friend, it tells you when you're seriously injured, it keeps you awake and angry but the best thing about it is it lets you know that you're alive.

I have a tendency to hurt myself physically, when I'm hurting inside.

Every night before I go to sleep I lie on my bed and stare up at my blank walls. I try to imagine the future, but right now it's as blank as those walls. All I can see is a past that I barely recognize any more.

There's a smile on my face but I don't know why it's there... I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care.

Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.

I'm hurting so bad inside I just wish you could see... I'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me.

Beware the person who has nothing to lose.

In the end, music is your only friend.

When your going thru hell... it's best to just keep on going...

What's the point in screaming? No ones listening anyway.

I like having low self-esteem it makes me feel special.

Take it from someone who's fallen... it's a long way down.

The only thing worse then being hated is being ignored. At least when they hate you they treat you like you exist.

Rock bottom is good solid ground, and a dead end street is just a place to turn around.

Nothing can stop me now because I don't care anymore.

In that one instance I hated everyone in my life, everyone and everything, and me most of all.

I've been a loser all my life. I'm not about to change. If you don't like it, there's a door. Nobody made you stay.

I just like playing games with people, I always hope there'll be someone smart enough to see through me but you're all so stupid.

I'm so happy, cause today I found my friends, they're in my head.---Kurt Cobain

If you die you're completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. I'm not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I've got.---Kurt Cobain

I've come to the point where nothing matters anymore, and things I used to care about aren't worth fighting for.

RLS…….I believe in whatever gets you through the night. Night is the hardest time to be alive. For me, anyway. It lasts so long, and four am knows all my secrets. Four am is when my dreams die.

If I would kill myself tonight, who would remember me tomorrow?

No more joy - No more sadness - No emotion - Only madness. I can't see. I don't feel. I can't touch. I don't heal.

I can't stop crying... I don't understand, and it's not the loud, screaming crying... it's just the tears continuously roll down my face, and I can't do anything to stop them.

Depression is such a strong emotion, its regret, fear, frustration, isolation, a choice, and sometimes even a form of protection. ~ Never_the_star

Do you ever lay in bed at night hoping you wake up in the emergency room and hear the words "shes not going to make it?"